Sunday, August 13, 2006

Chasing Fireworks!

Last week, I didn't manage to have a proper view of the fireworks. How often do you get to catch it anyway? First, for the eve of National Day, I was occupied with some kind of farewell fellowship (if you can term that!) with some friends. Sad that they are leaving Singapore for some years (yes, depart on National Day) but well, people come and go.

So, when I hear from colleagues the next day that the fireworks the night before were really spectacular, I felt what a great thing I missed out! Hence, I decided with my hubby that we better make sure we catch the fireworks on National Day! But... I got the timing wrong; thought it could start later, like the night before! Thank God for husbands who remember... (though they don't always remember things). We ended up rushing to a HDB block near ICA to view it. My hubby again complained that I perpectually imagined his white corona to be a rocket :P We were desperately looking for carpark lots in the multistorey carpark but couldn't find any! I wound down the window so as to take heed of the start of the fireworks. In less than 2 min time, I heard it! My hubby stopped his car at an unauthorised spot, on his hazard lights and out we rushed out! Yea, his car was blocking other cars but hey, at that moment, everyone else will be watching the fireworks, um.. ya? Thank God that the carpark was connected to the flat and we managed to catch sight of it, even though it was a smaller sight. It was shorter than I expected :( Nevertheless, we still give thanks. At least we caught it this time, considered that it was an almost miss! :>

Have not given it much thoughts but learn that this weekend, there would be fireworks too! So, last night (Fri), my hubby and I 'smuggled out' from a meeting (to put it plainly: we actually pre-leave before official time, lar!) and .... we caught it!! This time, we were closer. Right before we cross the traffic light towards the Esplande, right on time at 9pm, the fireworks came on! I remember running in my heels towards the scene for a better look. Sometimes, I feel my hubby is playing the daddy role in making sure I don't hurt myself or run across the road (of course I didn't!) hee hee...

I was really happy. Recorded 2 scenes on my sony erricson mobile. Didn't expect that tonight (meaning Sat) will have another round! This time, we were out with a couple friend and their 2-yr-old boy. We went to another place for viewing and it was nicer than the night before =]

I mused to my hubby, that it seems after Lee Hsien Loong took over, we have been able to enjoy fireworks more often! Not bad! ;) Well, as some said, after all, what went up there was also ultimately our money. Ha! Nevertheless, it was definitely cheers and boast to the spirit of Singaporeans!

NLB Great Sale Squeeze

Last year, I missed the National Library Board sale. Prices was slashed to unbelievably low though the books naturally are not in crisp new condition... This year, I was more diligent ;) Tk God for a hubby who would drive me there in the morning - to join the 'snake' queue. I arrive 5 min after official opening time but the queue was already more than 400 metres long, if not, longer!

The Singapore Squeeze
Now, I know that apart from the strange phenomenon that Singaporeans love to queue up for things, I am fully aware that Singaporeans can be ugly in certain settings (for e.g. when they are all fighting for that seemingly 1 thing which in the end they may not desperately need after all), I wasn't ready that I hardly have more than 1 min to browse the books on each section so as to decide whether to buy it or not! It felt almost like factory assembly line! Move, stop, pause, move on...

One Lesson To Bring Back...
You guessed it - the attire! Though it may sounds familiar to warfare preparation, you will not lose out if you wear prepared for any pushing or stepping on - be it someone else's feet or worse, wheels carrying full load of books dragged mindlessly by frantic browsers! I was frustrated and stated in the most diplomatic and firm tone for that fellow to watch out for his wheels. But, all fell on deaf ears. *sigh* Well, the conclusion is: wear shoes and keep your open toes shoes at home! If possible, wear thicker clothing so that you won't be suceptible to blue-blacks when you get out of the place!

More Kiasu-ism To Come!
What I was not prepared for was a sighting in the queue. Well, it was a long, long queue as expected. Thus, to make the wait less torturing, I picked up one of the books I planned to buy and read as I queued and moved up the queue, while at times, using my feet to shift my plastic bag of books ahead as I moved forward. Gradually, I saw more and more of this 'technique ' being practised. But, my jaws almost dropped when I saw a lady singlehandedly dragged 2 bags of books from behind her, and with each move forward, pushed not 1 but 3 bags of books ahead of her!!! Did her helpers abandon her or was it kiasu-ism in manifestation?!

To sum it up, it was indeed an experience to remember for some time to come. I have been to warehouse sale before but never been in such a packed place. It was almost like a 'warhouse' sale... I actually almost lost my balance twice due to the hurried pushing of others in their relentless pursuit of their books. Well, thank God that His angels got hold of me! ;> I will surely be more prepared for next round (yes, i'll be back!) The 45 min wait and some uninvited kia-su pushing were somehow worth it, cos' I took back 5 good books that cost me only $10!

Sunday, August 06, 2006

Now, what?

Results are out. In fact, have been out for 2 wks. Guess I don't sound as excited cos' the hype has died down as time goes by... I thank God that I have passed. B grade is not too bad... considering that this subject is one of the killer ones... Well I guess i ain't sounding too excited cos' I came to realise that things will be pretty much the same for the next quarter, if not longer than that. Earlier on, I was quite excited at the changes that could be coming up (ever heard of people looking forward to changes?). Now, I have kinda resigned to the fact (or rather, decision) to hold my horses and wait and see.

Some of you might know how that feel... *sigh* the process of having to bite the bullet and hang on... the agony of wanting and yet having to hold back... the longing for breakthrough that seems so near and yet so far away... and you wonder whether ultimately you will get there or is it just a dream?

Just have to psych myself: Relax. Be patient. Enjoy the process. No point sulking since you're gonna go thru' the process anyway. Might as well enjoy it. Yea? :I

Tuesday, June 20, 2006

The road to liberty has not been easy... and Liberty is so wonderful!

19 June 2006
This is a rather special date, for it marked the day of my last exam for the semester - for my degree programme. Indeed, the journey was not as easy (and short) as I have thought but am glad it's all over. Not to say that I did not enjoy the stuff I have learnt though. It was good, though the assignments and deadlines were at times quite stressful.

Why was it not easy?
Now, I am FREE from the thought of restarting my 'study gear' when the next semester starts. It doesn't concern me anymore! And no more mandated reading of texts. I can pick up other reference bks I have longed bought for reading at my leisure... Yea, am quite sure I will clear this paper; have actually estimated my grade - best and worst scenarios - both in safe ground ;) Of course, with God's goodness included in (actually, overtaking everything else), how can I not do well??

Prelude
Anyway, the day didn't started well for my 9am paper. In fact, the trouble began the night before... I have planned earlier to be in bed by 1am. However, at 12+, I began to hear some vrooming and it kept repeating... Now, my place is really at one end of the island; you can literally see the sea. You can say that it's quite u-lu here, cos you hardly see cars at night along that long stretch of road out there. So, I thought some punkies are playing with their bikes there, but no... they were further, yet so resounding (in a bad way). Guess where they were? Irritably smart of them - they actually were across the Sungei river, vrooming back and forth in barely 200 metres of lane, at a kumpong-like land. Don't know how they got there but it sure is a place not as assessible for traffic police to visit.

I dismissed the noises and resumed my study, only to find myself more disturbed by those inconsiderate persistent noises... Why? At an hour when pple are sleeping? Did they think that b'cos they were across a river, their engines become mute? In fact, it was so loud that I suspect modifications have been made to increase the engine decibel. Even the police officer on the phone could hear that.

Yup. I rang up the man in blue. First, it was a lady who picked up. She was diligent and agreed that she heard some noise in the background. Would alert the traffic police, she said. In case you think I was too worked up or the study stress has gotten to me, it was half an hour later before I rang up triple nine (the police lady did not answer on what the more appropriate no. to call was, even though I asked in the beginning).

And, you suppose things are ok after that? I realised I could not get into sleep anyway with those noises, so I decided to study a bit more, so that those bikers would have called it a night by then. 2 am arrived. Vrooming continues. And naturally, the next phone call also took place. A male officer picked up the call. This time, he was the one who exclaimed at the loudness of the noises he heard. He totally agreed with my diplomatic speech of feedback (no, I didn't lash out at anyone, even though I was tired and upset) and he sounded eager when he said he would check with the traffic police for updates.

No reports or updates came back to me. Perhaps that officer took note that I have mentioned I need to sleep now for the sake of my exam next morning! I remembered the vrooming continued even when my body touched the bedsheets. Probably I was too tired (slept at 4+am the night before) that it didn't take too long before slumberland enfolded me...

Cosy Morning + Surprise from Car = ?
My hubby woke me up. It seemed that I have missed the sound of my alarm... (it happens whenever I gets too tired). He actually willingly volunteered to sleep outside for the night so that I could have better sleep for my exam the next day! :p Tk God for such a considerable husband! Well, of course, that came by after my complaint of his unbearable snoring when I tried to get into sleep at 4+ am the night before. I ended up sleeping on the coach that night. So, I guess, hmm.... fair, right? ;p

Anyway, I mumbled to him that the weather was good, and I will rise after 5 more min when my alarm ring again. It won't be so bad cos' he would be sending me to the exam venue :) Punggol to Bukit Merah. Travel duration by public transport vs car is a whole lot of precious differences!!

In case you wonder if I messed up by exceeding my 5 promised min - no. Everything was good. Until the car hit the road... We realised the car tyre was not doing well. And the cosy weather that preceded the heavy downpour has came down. What a combi! At 8.10am, we were at a sheltered area where my hubby changed the tyre. Honestly, I was very tempted to act on what I have told him earlier (twice), that I would take a cab to my exam venue. Sometimes, he gets more anxious than me, esp when it comes to punctuality. I gotta catch up with him on that! The fact that 2 empty cabs actually whisked by didn't help, esp when 1 even stopped for a longer time than expected. Should I or should I not? I thought that my hubby would be real disppointed if I should 'jump ship' (jump car, in this case), since he actually changed the tyre himself, dirtied his hands, when he could have send it to a proper place to change it, which has to be done ultimately. If I should hurriedly rush off, he probably would be left thinking "So, would somebody tell me what I am doing this for?"

So, I commit this to the Lord. God, Your word has said that I am a priest (the royal priesthood verse, for those who know what I am talking abt). And the words of a priest has power, as does a believer in Christ, as mentioned in other verses of the Book. Thus, I asked (actually more of declare or command) the rain to simmer so that it will be easier for my hubby to drive later, and that I will not be so late till I don't have enough time to finish my paper.

And, indeed, the rain simmer. We set off at abt 8.20am, from SengKang. Though the rain has simmered, it was still quite heavy but I tk God that it was at least visible and not as hazardous. Traffic holdup at one of the expressways did not help. Worse, my stomach didn't feel well (the kind that you wish to go to the loo to do some 'closure') but I was stuck in the middle of the jam in the expressway, and to risk arriving later was rather unthinkable. So, pray lar... This is one of those times that all you can do (the only thing you can do, in fact) is to call upon the higher Source of help. You might think I was stressed but I mused abt last night's episode of Lord of the Ring (Twin Tower) where Gollum strugged with the evil forces, by confidently and repeatedly speaking "Leave and never come back!". Indeed, there are so much Christian anologies in the movie. Don't the verse in 1 Peter 5:9 also says "Resist him (devil), standing firm in the faith (in Christ's finished work and victory)..." and in James 4:7 "Resist the devil, and he will flee from you." Now, doesn't that sound like Gollum's words... "Leave and never come back". The word is "flee", which I shared with my hubby. The devil is not walking away in a manner that is like throwing up one hands and just give up; it spoke of fright and fear, otherwise, why the word "flee"? Somehow, the words "Christ's finished work" kept coming to my mind as I prayed. I would say that I was calmer b'cos I rested on His finished works. I just realised that the first part of James 4:7 says "Submit yourselves, then to God." By resting on His finished works, I was submitting, I realised. No need to depend on myself, which can't do much anyway. My hubby realised that we have not prayed for journey mercy the night before, though he has prayed for me for my exam. I shared that even though God knows all things, we need to speak forth and articule our requests. Perhaps by not speaking, the devil came into that 'untouched' part to wrack havoc. I also realised my spoken words of "will have no time to check thru' my ans" came true. That was when my hubby asked if I would be able to complete my paper, since I was running late.

Anyway, as I began to give tks and focused more on my revision notes whilst in the car, we arrived! Though I knew everyone else has entered the exam rooms, I knew the better thing to do is to settle the more urgent thing first... After coming out from the toilet, I entered the nearest exam room. And I don't even need to walk more than 5 steps! Seemed like all other seats were occupied except that one. Hmm... God reserved for me?

The Exam
Right after I settle down at my seat, the exam personnel announced that all examinees could start writing. Wow! It was 9.20am when I went in. That meant they started at 9.10am actually! I just missed the earlier 10 min reading time! Thank God!!

I tk God too that the paper was quite manageable. Actually mistook that there were 100 qns (MCQ). Even thought I was progressing well at half time. Towards the 3rd quarter of the paper, I started to slow down my pace. Even tried to re-find that particular strand of my split-end hair which I have earlier spotted but dismissed it to concentrate on my paper. Tkfully, that did not take up more than 5 sec, though it was still precious. Yea, I have this habit of trimming off my split-ends whenever I spotted them. That explains why I always have a small pair of scissors with me. I am not mad, just consciencous...

Was not too ready for the shock when I read qn 100 and realised there were still some more qns behind! Oh gosh! 50 more! It's 150 qns for this 2-hr paper! Again, the frentic pace resumed, with some self-chiding for my complacency :s

All tks to God's grace, I managed to finish all the qns. Could not check thru' my ans or re-think some tough qns but I did my best... Much later, my coursemate called my hp. She wondered where I was before the exam and was shocked when I told her I was late for 20 min. And you know what? She could not finish the paper, even though she arrived on time! Wow... what went on for me was really God's grace at work! not my works!

FREEDOM!! Now, to reward myself...
It really feel so shiok to know that I would not be touching books and no more deadlines to meet - for some time to come. This did not fully sink in, even after I have left the exam building, but it sure did during the afternoon, when I kinda paint the town red... Nope, didn't spend till my pocket broke. In fact, I realised God even looks after the small things for me... even in shopping, can you believe it? Indeed, it's a good thing to bring God along for shopping :P

Bugis * Orchard * Plaza Singapura
Erm... you might have wow to that. Honestly, I also feel a bit pai-seh to list those places out. Have not quite done my shopping this far apart. But, of course, I have my reasons for that.

First, Bugis was the spot I planned to go to get an orange rugged belt for my darling (aka hubby). He was quite fasincated by it, until he saw the price tag... I wanted to buy for him cos' i have been enjoying shopping while he did not buy any 'I-want' stuff as he was not as liberated as me to shop at leisure. I myself was also taken aback at the price of the belt, which is more expensive than a typical lady's blouse I might purchase. And indeed, the clothing I bought today (1 pants and 2 tops) - the price by the individual item, could not match up to the belt price. Now, it's true after all... Men's stuff are expensive!

And the part abt God at work for my shopping... It was seen as a blessing in disguise! Today, I learnt to rest in God's soverignty - even in purchasing stuff! At a boutique, I tried on 3 tops. Needed to get some working clothes as some of my existing ones are wearing out, or rather, have worn out. Earlier, I hesistated in buying from this boutique, cos' their clothing are not cheap. Without discount, 2 pcs can easily cost nearly S$70! And it's not top-notch super brand, as far as I am concerned. I am certainly not happy to part with that amount of $ that easily at this point in time. This time, 20% discount is offered if you get 2 pcs. After trying, I made my selection. The new piece that was brought up by the sales girl has a stain which I was not confident of cleaning off. And it was the last piece (always the case?). For the other top - the only piece left was the one I tried on. Now, these clothing are knitted material. I noticed that there were signs of wearing off, even though it was quite slight. Well, I guess, it does not rest well for me to pay for something that is of compromised standard, just as it is for some of you out there. To make things worse, after I have at last decided to just close one eye and buy, the boutique staff told me (quite abruptly) that their Nets machine is not in service until some serviceperson arrive hrs later. After telling me that, she resumed to reconciling the cashier slips she has laid on the counter, where the 2 pcs I was supposed to buy, also laid.

GEMS? Go The Extra Mile Singapore? Was there really such a campaign that have gone on? Gone with the wind, perhaps... Such lousy service really put me off. Don't they know that I was a sincere buyer? Given the amt of time I have spent in the boutique and the compromise I was ready to make? They did not even offer any alternatives after telling me that they cannot accept Nets payment at that point in time. What would you have done if you were me?

Off I left. Without a word. Anyway, the sales girl was not expecting me to say anything (she was busy with her slips). Perhaps tkfully so I left without saying anything. If I have done so, that might have been an episode of me losing self-control, a fruit of the Spirit! Ok, God has better things in store for me. Or at least, I deserve better service, even as a shopper! Later, I realised that God knew I was not completely happy with the purchase (and the service), so He actually 'close the door' for me. Isn't He wonderful? I was pleasantly surprised to realise later that with the same amt I would have paid for that 2 pcs, I actually brought 3 pcs later, and I like them all! In fact, out of the 3 pcs, 2 were the type of clothing that I have been wanting to get. All 3 were on discount. God is good, amen?

And the Angel re-open the door, upon hearing the Password?
After buying the 3 pcs from Orchard, I went on the Plaza Sing, my last stop for the day, to get the discounted bedsheets. By then, my arms and hands were quite tired, having carried my bks and the shopping stuff for hours. Took the train to Dohby Ghaut. Would have been able to enter the train in time, had not the man in front block the walkway on the escalator with his bulky bag. Still, though I missed the door (yea, I tried to rushed in), I still give tks. Tk God, now, at least I won't have to compete for the chance to sit on those limited sitting area, whilst waiting for the next train! And I really have no idea that God is so near, that right after I gave tks (in my mind), the train doors, actually closed, reopened! Wow! I ran in! I am so dearly loved, that God is willing to hold the train (and all its passengers) just to let me catch this train... :p

I didn't manage to get the bedsheets in the end. A bit disappointed but it was fine. Have not expected that the shipman could be delayed, after all the advertising in their newsletters. Nevertheless, I remained happy, cos God has blessed me much! Now moving on after my studies, I have new goals to pursue!

Thursday, June 15, 2006

Exam blues...

Hiya... been a while since i last update here... was actually reading some blogs then i thot, hmm... maybe it's high time i update mine too... Actually, blog is such a nice way of knowing what's going on in the lives of pple u care, as well as a good avenue to find similar-minded mates in terms of interests, etc. Still, nothing beats the personal touch of meet up or phone call. ok... am advertising for neither blog of teleco, ok? Muz clarify...

For the last 8 days, i have been 'imprisoned' at home for the sake of completing the last 'leg' of my degree race... Well, actually i did 'got out' over the wkend... but that's more to submit my assignment (which ate into my exam revision time) and well... to give myself some sanity break as well... after having worked so hard on my assignment! I'll be ashamed to disclose how long i took to finish that so i shall not say so :p

The reading of the text is quite dry. Nevertheless, am psych-ing myself to love it! After all, it's psychology I'm after. Certain topics, well, not that bad after all lar... I jus wish that i could progress faster... Ha.. i guess at the back of my mind, i am still harbouring hopes that i can 'go out' and do some stuff i have much earlier planned for during this long 1 and half wks of leave! now, it seems the risk is too high... better finish my revision safely first... the rest can wait... can't afford to wait another full year to finish my course if i don't clear this module!

Am taking a break from my reading on the laptop. Was in fact trying to load up the MCQ questions but again, it took too long that one begin to wonder if there's any virus coming on! *sigh* So, naturally, i went on to check out other stuff online ;) Only have to tell myself not to have 'over time' break... Am i too hard on myself? But really hate it that my progress is this slow.. :(

One last note, and this is a thanksgiving :) The reason i can blog at this hr is all thks to a laptop recently acquired at $800~ during a promotion. Yea, it's first hand and not the cannot-make-it type of model. In fact, am listening to online radio right now and the speakers work v well too ;) As some of you might know, yrs truly are not very well off, so part of the money that purchased this laptop actually came 'pre-maturely' from the progress package... Ha... what a way to promote votes... the Singaporean way... if fines work well, i guess it worked for votes as well!

Guess most of you don't know that in order to get this laptop, i have to queue up outside Courts early in the morning, even when the aircon is not on yet and the security guard is walking around... U can exclaim and laugh but i seriously have never thought i would do such a thing! The perils of 'poverty'! When i reach the spot, which is abt 3 hrs before opening time, i realised i was the 17th person in queue! Truly Singaporean... me newbie lar.. But gosh! The fact that each outlet has only 3 laptops to offer was definitely bad news to me then... I'm 17th in the queue! Nevertheless, i prayed (and sms 2 more persons to pray! hubby included of course, cos' he's the one who suggested getting the laptop) and sat myself down to read thru' the Sat's thick pile of newspapers. Have even bought my course bk to read + music to listen to... Never quite imagine that i could also be 'entertained' by the musings of others (kay-poh) in the queue. Heard 1 uncle (who seems to know everything and is kinda 'indian chief') that the first 3 persons actually came all the way from the Bt Timah outlet, which was already lined up with many the night before... Yea, I know Seng Kang is quite off location wise but, you mean they have started queuing since last night??? Unthinkable... and I sincerely hope i won't ever reach that stage!!

Some minor arguements even arose when other newbies tried to queue at the other end... when the queue has stretched to the opposite end (near escalator). Courts staff were asked to be involved in calming unnerved 'queue-ers'. I just 'kan si' aka. watch show, lar! In the end, it's still happy ending - those who try to cheat were told that the queue started at my direction. Hahaha!!! Aw-bee-good, uh! =p

And the happier ending is: I GOT THE LAPTOP!!!! I was the 2nd 'qualifying' person to buy the laptop, based on the numbered ticket given to me. Was somewhat amazed. Indeed it is God's intervention!

So, now i don't have to take shifts with my hubby in using internet or word processing stuff, since he often use it for his work purposes... u know, working on his quotations and emailing, and esp his design software, which slowed the system terribly!!! Now, we just have to move the modem here and there, depending on whose need to use internet is more justifiable ;) Don't worry, we don't fight over this :]

God is good :)

Thursday, March 16, 2006

Winn's updates

Friendship - such a fragile ship at times...

Lately, a friendship my good friend and I have shared with another friend has gone down the drain :( We threesome have known one another since our secondary school days.

After leaving school, one of us went on to poly; another went on to another poly then private school; this friend stayed on for another year in school, then later to private tertiary upgrade. Then, my good friend got hitched at age 21; she's the earliest one to get married among us three. Years later, I also got married.

We threesome used to meet up on one another's birthdays and occasions like CNY or X'mas or ad-hoc gatherings. However, this friend suddenly gave us the virtual cold shoulder i.e. never reply via email about updating or meeting up. I have thought that she was busy. This friend of ours can be quite 'inconsistent' at times; my good friend and I felt weird about it but have got used to this aspect of her.

However, this time, the verdict is really bad! One day, she sms-ed us that her hp no. would be changed soon and would update us her new no. by a certain date. I thought it was one of those mass informed smses. So, I waited... and waited... past the said date... Still no update? So, I sms-ed back to ask for update. Still no reply =(

My good friend and I were puzzled by her behaviour. She called her up. Apparently, the feel my good friend got was that she was trying to avoid her. Her mom said she was "not at home". I tried calling her a few times but can't reach her as well -> "not at home"

So, since she lives so near me, I purposefully dropped by to visit. She was there! Cordial but somewhat distanced as we talked. I brought up the subject of her avoidance. She, not surprisingly, denied so. I updated that our good friend is pregnant! She expressed pleasant surprise and asked about how our good friend was adjusting. Hmm... We talked about other stuff and at some points, it sounded just like old times when we chatted.

The following night, both my good friend and I received a nasty sms from her. In her sms, she said she was sick of us and told us (me) not to suddenly appear at her place. I remember though, that she wrote about wanting to be left alone "for the time being". It was near Christmas then.

So we did. We were upset that she refuse to tell us what went wrong. Was it something we have done or said? Let us know! At least we know how to improve! It's a friendship of 18 years! How can we let go of it so easily?

We did not dare to venture in yet... During the CNY period, I dropped a card at her place. Meant to insert it in her mailbox but alas! it was locked! No choice got to hand deliver up. The door was opened but it was too great a risk for me to turn up 'unsolicitated' again - if you know what I mean! I knew it was not exactly nice but I have no choice but to leave the card at the doorstep...

So, that was it. Neither of us have hear any news from her. Sometimes, as I have told my good friend, I wish I could bump into her mother while doing marketing near her block and find out what's with her...

Thursday, March 09, 2006

I've been promoted! - to an Aunty!

Ha! It may sound a bit old to be called Aunty but I'm happily awaiting my newly arrived niece to call me so!!

Baby Angel arrived on Jan 11th at Mt Alvernia at 8.10pm (or so). Indeed, it was God's answered prayer for my sis who kept reminding me 'uth'-less time to pray for a painless childbirth process. Yes, a friend has read a book on this written by a Christian author and yea, she could testified that her 2nd delivery was painless! My sis did not look out for the book at Christian bookstores nevertheless *sigh*

Anyway, she was admitted at 4+pm and ta-da! after 10 minutes of real pushing, the baby is out! Not bad for a first time delivery! My bro-in-law kept saying the baby is very cute and that once the doc turned her over to face all the eyes above watching, baby Angel's eyes immediately opened! Quite a bit of hair also. Didn't cried much too; just a bit of baby typical cry 'oh-er'. Easy baby? as what my sis always prayed for??

Though I call her Angel, her registered Christian name is Angela. The mother (yea, my sis) is concerned that she may be teased at by friends when she grow up in future. Angel was in fact the preferred name my sis thought of. Still, it's the parents' call :) It was interesting that my bro-in-law initially wanted her to be named 'Mary'. Their surname is 'Looi'.... Sounds like marrying $?? A prophecy??!? My sis-in-law is also called Mary. Anyway, I'm thankful for Angel or Angela :p

It's cute to play with Angel but, ha... as many have said this and I am in total agreement: taking care is another whole new ball game! I'm happy to have my free time now. Can't imagine at this point to give up the luxury of waking up late, doing my reading, watching TV, etc. Friends have always asked "So, when's your turn?" My reply is always: "I can't hold the baby with 1 arm and the other arm my textbook! Either one of them will die or I, myself to go first!" Well, this study-after-office-hours reason will be invalid soon after I complete my degree in mid-yr (by His grace!). Still, it's important to have sound financial ground before having an addition in the family. J and I have recently went to a 3rd place for our 2nd year honeymoon. Wedding honeymoon was Bali; last yr was KL Sunway Lagoon with Sam Hui's concert; recently we went to Bangkok, yes, shopping paradise indeed! (Have never shopped to the extent of my feet having sudden sharp pains! Was actually limping slightly during the last days there!)There is still (at least) one more place I would like to go before I settle for motherhood... Australia!

Well, we'll see...

Friday, July 29, 2005

Colleague left, so what's next?

Colleagues come and go at my workplace. Recently, one of my lunch kakis also left. She is more than just a colleague - she's the reason I started TWWJ at my workplace, for the purpose of growing her knowledge and faith in God's goodness. When she told me she was leaving, I started to wonder where the purpose of TWWJ should head...

However, after this, on at least 2 occasions, I saw how she has applied God's grace in her thinking and outward behaviour towards others. Wow! So, that was it! God seemed to have spoken to me at that instant, that I have achieved what I want, or rather, what He wants through the TWWJ.

It's also a bit 'scary' when you know people take your words very seriously... Earlier on, she was hinting me of her resignation, by recalling some 'advice' I have given her - that everyone has a God-given purpose in life, that one shouldn't waste too much time 'wandering around' but seek to fulfill God's will for their lives.

Ha... and now, indeed, she's going towards where her talent, passion and desire lies. May God bless her abundantly in her "land of milk and honey"!

B is flesh, A is grace!

When I logged on to my uni's website and saw my results, I was indeed surprised but glad nevertheless. Perhaps the word 'glad' is too 'dilute' for the description...

Got B for Abnormal Psychology. Didn't quite expect that (though there was a small possiblity) cos' I have not totally covered all the topics. Wow! B!!

A was for Research Methods in Psy A. Thought I would get a B at most, cos' that was based on my assessment of how far I could go. Now, I learnt that with God, I can go a lot further! This is indeed God's grace =) As this subject was actually a repeated one, I remembered praying to Papa that I want to do very well, since this was a repeated subject. However, when it comes to the revision, urgghh, it just didn't seemed that realistic. Nevertheless, all glory due to Him!

Thursday, June 16, 2005

Assignment Blues & Exam Ever...

Now! I'm back to 'civilisation' too!! Feels so wonderfully great! =D

Actually, today marks the beginning of my exams. Why the celebrative mood? Well, for the past week, I have been deeply buried in intensive revision. Before that, I was frantically rushing for assignment deadlineS (nope, it wasn't last minute attempts, in case you're judging too early ;> ). You can almost say that I have 'reclused' in isolation during those days. What do you call having to eat with, drink with, bath with, sleep with, dream of XXX ?? Replace the 'XXX' with assignment or exam revision, you'll understand what I mean by my rational for using the word 'recluse'! Seriously! Apart from the usual daily necessities, I was just doing revision. Being sick didn't help either... Many (I think I'm the 5th to 7th candidate) have caught some virus at work over the past few weeks. Was mentally doing the 'Sars-like' flowchart already...

Still remember that late afternoon after coming out from a meeting, it begin with an innocent feel of itch on my throat. Hours later, I started to feel some throat uncomfort. At night, reality hits! -> It's REALLY sore throat! How come so suddenly? In the middle of the night, I woke up feeling something weird in my throat (can't remember if it's terribly dry or pain). When daylight comes, indeed, my worst fears came true - I can hardly hear my voice. Have 'lost' my voice twice and was once mistook as a mute but sweet girl (that fellow even said "wasted"!) ;-{

And in case you think, that's the worst it can get, that's not just yet!! At the nearby clinic, doc took my temperature and said I didn't have fever (only when I asked). I saw that the reading was 36.9 (hope my science teacher is not reading this but I kinda forgot what degree was the 'dangerous' level =P Was 36.9 degree celsius the norm or ceiling? Feel free to post yr comments...) What confused me was that among the medicine given to me, one of them was for treating fever. When I exclaimed in question "I have fever?", the pharmacist look at me strangely, and tactfully answered that I could take it "when needed".

????? So, do I or do I not have fever?

Anyway, after the 'fever' (felt somewhat better after taking it and sleeping), I started to develop phlegm and later cough. The 'finale' was flu. Was probably tired b'cos of that. Hee... this is not very lady-like, but I actually slept on one of those rod-iron chairs that allows for lean back, when I arrived 1 hour earlier for an external meeting. No worries, cos' I was in neighbourhood area, not cosmo city area ;) Could hardly make it through the day. Was given a kind 'go home' by my nice supervisor after lunch. Still, much as I can't wait to sink into slumberland, I can't just leave yet cos' that day was the last day before I embark on my 11-work day leave! Took an hour (thank God it's not more!) to clear some work and arrange for some handover during this period.

As you can see, the sicknessES just added to the typical stress while one prepares for exams. The first paper (have 3 papers in total) is most crucial, cos it's one of the papers that I failed last year. This particular subject has high failure rate, rumored to be as high as 40% last year or the previous year (lecturer even said that one student had a heart attack during exams! *gasp*). Need to sit for 2 papers to complete the exam for this ONE subject! And no fooling around! If you fail one but pass the other paper, even if your total aggregate justify for a pass, you will still be considered having failed the course! I was given feedback that I failed more in the first paper. So, now you get the full picture why the last week was esp. stressful for me?

Nevertheless, thank God for bringing me through. Tks to those (you know who you are) who have kept me in prayers during this period =) I nearly spent the entire time studying for the wrong chapters. Thank God that I discovered it earlier! If not, I will have to race even harder against time to complete my revision.

Alas, as I was walking into the exam hall this afternoon in Spring Singapore (the former PSB in Bukit Merah), I still have not adequately cover all in revision. However, it doesn't make sense to linger outside the halls though it was then just the 10 minutes reading (but no writing permitted) time, when everyone else are already busy thinking up answers in there. And so, I went in. Believers, that's the best way to allow Him to work through you, isn't it? Bo-bian mah, so, how? Die or don't die, also gotta trust Him. Who else can I hope in anyway? Whatever the case, He never fails.

After a gruelling 3 hours (even my pen ink run out! gotta used spare pen), I came out, thinking, ok, it wasn't as bad as it can be. However, this was strangely familiar when I took the exam the first time round last year (I even joined coursemates in laughing it off, saying how easy it was! Come to think of it, aiyo, so ashamed...) *Sigh* Hope in the Lord, hope in the Lord...

Got 2 more papers to biah... Can afford to relax a bit but can't be too complacent =I Can't wait for this whole exam season to be over when I will really pamper myself...=} No, not going to paint the town red (otherwise, my heart will 'pain' + account may be also turn 'red'). Have already drawn out a list of stuff to do after the 27th! ;] Anyway, focus, focus!! Study!

Monday, May 02, 2005

T.W.W.J.

Behold... it's TWWJ, not TGIF, not WWJD ;)

TWWJ -> This Wednesday With Jesus!

Ha... this name is kinda 'franchised' from the lunchtime fellowship group i adopted from one of my ex-work places. Yea, have (finally!) started a lunchtime fellowship group at my current workplace. It's been a year since i joined my current organisation that i started the group. Was quite not used to the 'void' initially when i first joined... cos' in all my 3 ex-work places, i've enjoyed attending some sort of Christian fellowship group @ work (i'm blessed, i know.)

So, how did it all start? Well, ... the story goes... first was the yearning (as stated above). Second, i got wind of a man of God (known in Christian circle) setting up some businesses nearby my workplace, which translated into shops! One of which is conducive enough for a small fellowship group. I mused and didn't gave it much thought, except this: Is this a sign from God? Third, i was convinced by Him (during a mega Christian group meeting) to just do it! Fourth, i approached the man of God, who readily agreed! PTL!!

Fifth, i started falling sick and if i remember correctly - was not at work 'coincidentally' for two consecutive Wed (wasn't on MC for two wks though, in case u're wondering...) Hmm... some warfare at work?

Finally! The group started. Though the first two sessions were just the two of us (myself and another colleague who is kinda "wandering in the desert" but keen to "come home"), i found myself benefitting a great deal as well! This small ministry cause me to study the Word more since i normally prepare for the sharing. So far, i have been leading the worship, Word, well... the whole session. Hope newbies can take over some of the time soon!!

The last Wed we met, another sister joined us. So, now indeed, it is "the two or three" of us who gather together, and God is among us as He promised! There were two more colleagues who expressed interest to join us but were constrained by work during the Weds that have passed.

From the beginning, i told myself, even if this group begins and ends only with two members, it's worth it - cos' it brings the Truth closer to my "wandering" colleague, and by His grace, will bring her back completely. TWWJ's objectives here are to uphold one another in faith and prayer, as well as to share the Lord's goodness.

If the Lord makes this group grow, He will provide a bigger place (say amen!). Interestingly, last Wed, i saw one of my big bosses on my way back to office (carrying the guitar). She's quite a fervent Christian, as far as I know. As you might have expected, questions were asked and answers were given factually. And... i ventured in good faith in sounding her out for a room within the office (having religious meeting @ work might be quite sensitive; was told by a colleague to keep it 'low profile' if i were to hold it TWWJ within office premises). My big boss said "Uh...", nodded and smiled... well, not sure if wryly or thoughtfully. Now, come to think of it, a lot of things I've done did require some degree of 'extraordinary courage'? Muz have gotten it from Him!

So, do pray pray for provision, ya? A meeting room within office premises will certainly save time (precious time esp during lunch hour) and the hassle of bringing the guitar about.

The Lord taught me one lesson on trusting Him during the last session. I was quite concerned on the space constraints (i was told that the current place can sit three persons). Initially, it seemed that five persons would be coming for last wk's TWWJ!! Though i kinda exclaimed "Huh? How??" in my heart, i remember the oil in the widow's house - the poor widow Elijah ministered to. Miracluouly, the oil's supply seemed infinite though bottles after bottles were brought to contain it. The oil run out ONLY when their oil bottles have run out. I thought, hey, i shouldn't be too concerned about chairs and inadequate sitting capacity... After all, TWWJ is His meeting. He's the ChairPerson and will ensure there's enough seats.

True enough, while three of us turned up, there were four seats in the room, plus one more which the shop staff offered as an extra.

Talk about trusting! Ha... Keep us in prayers. Shalom!

Monday, March 07, 2005

Car's coming! Bang!!

6 March 2005 (Sunday night)

J & I were returning home from my mom-in-law's place slightly after 9.30pm. Were planning to catch The Apprentice at 10pm and before that driving to the nearby more economical petrol kiosk to pump up our petrol. Instead, at 10+, we ended up in the middle of a T-junction...

I was puzzled when J gave way earlier to some oncoming vehicles but still went on with his right turn when a long blue lorry was obviously approaching. I told him (which he later told me I did so - calmly) that there was a car coming. Next thing, BANG! I was pushed further by the impact to my right side. The lorry hit the side of our white Toyata Corona - at the side door where I was sitting! Part of the left front side on the car was also damaged; the left tyre was knocked into a dent position; the left front light "oozed" out; and of course, my door was jammed; aircon was down also.

However, I am safe and sound! In one full piece! No blood, no sprain, no bruise, no blue-black! Had just some slight discomfort that resulted from the sudden impactful knock but guess there shouldn't be any internal injury. My first thought was: God! My guardian angel must be seriously injured! To think that the car was travelling at a fairly fast speed!

Thank God that the lorry driver and his pregant partner was safe and sound too! The mother-to-be just got a bit of a shock and some brushes on her leg. Friends advised her to do a scan for her baby. She was quite nice and even smiled when we came out of the car! I later learnt from her that at the point before our vehicles collided, she told her partner to quickly brake the lorry, which certainly lessened the impact on my seat door! Otherwise, where would I be now?

J's insurance could pay for the damages of the lorry (they could still drive it though) but nothing for our car repairs which could easily cost up to $2000. J is quite discouraged. We have recently just re-collected our car as it was tough to service the instalements. Now this happened.

Nevertheless, we are still glad that we escaped unscathed. No police reports made; no demerit points. Just some financial issues to grapple with. Those who knows our Abba, talk to Him about us, ya?

He is our covering.

Friday, March 04, 2005

1st Anniversary =)

21 Feb 2004 - That's the date I was officially taken off the title of singlehood. Ha... sounds sad? Not exactly though. So soon, one year has passed on. Though marriage has not been totally smooth-sailing, I would say the pluses has surpassed the minuses so far. It takes two to clap, a "Third" to get involved, usually, to make things right ;) Tk U, Abba...

18 Feb 2004
That was the Fri i took leave from work to embark on a purposefully-planned 1st anniversary honeymoon with my honey hubby ;) The Sunway Lagoon trip was certainly better than our first honeymoon at Bali. Over there, we get to go to a wet and dry theme park, enjoyed a nicer view room w cable TV, and wow! endless streams of shopping! (and mind u, they're extending the shopping area!)

I took note of their indoor ice-skating rink as well. Been donkey years since i last ice-skated at Kallang Leisure Park. Dinosaur years since i skated at MacKenzie!! (some more "senior" folks might remember??). Didn't get to note the price but overall, most of the prices at KL are lower than in Singapore.

J & I really went on a shoe-string budget. We didn't have much $ anyway but did want to enjoy our marriage. Little but important things do count. Don't get caught up by the urgent, seemingly bigger stuff in life, right?

We went to Sam Hui's concert too. Allocated seats were near the right side of stage but sound projection poor :( We wandered to the opposite side of stage which though was further away, we heard the words much clearer! First time for me to attend a pop concert (to think it is out of my country!). Didn't think it was that worth the $. Musicals more worthwhile.

Back to Singapore on 20/2 nite. Back to work on 21/2 - which was in fact the actual date of our wedding anniversary. But, hey, who cares? So long we have celebrated! Ya? =)

Sunday, January 16, 2005

Winn's blog is born!!

Haha... so glad! Been almost 2 yrs since i wanted to start a blog for myself - after a friend from Aussie emailed his 'blogsite' (if there's such a word).

A gd friend is going to NY soon. She, too, has just started a blog. Good for updating..

Hope this webblog (think this's the more correct term...) will be done right.. Am passing time now in Pacific Coffee, waiting to meet friend at 11.15am elsewhere in town.