Can't sleep :(

Tonight (more accurately speaking, this morning), i can't doze into dreamland like before. It's actually the 2nd night. Last night, i went to bed (after the first 'failed attempt') at 3 am. Hubby was slightly awakened and asked what time it was. I didn't want to specify, for i know he would nag at me. He persisted however. Told him. Strangely, he became more alert and chided me in a lighthearted manner for waking him up. He was not as dreamy as i thought. Hours earlier, he aired his usual complaint of me not going to sleep the same time as he does. I told him that i was too alert for sleep. And I talked to him, whilst watching TV and reading newspapers. He said i was trying to stop him from sleeping and actually wanted him to accompany me in staying awake! I protested in jest that if i could fly all the way from Singapore to Dubai to accompany him full time, he should not even harbour any complaints of me requesting a few minutes of companionship!

Of course, yours truly was not seriously asking him to stay awake with me. To stop his persistent whining, i had to stop. Let him off. And he was fast asleep. Though he had entered dreamland (by the sound of his snoring), i decided to turn off the TV and aborted the movie i had wanted to watch. Thought i would just so some brief reading and then turn in. Reading at night actually led me to sleep easily.

That didn't work as well as thought out. I got up from bed and checked my Facebook and surf. Went back to bed at 3 am.

I thought i would have a better night tonight since i have exerted more energy today. Hubby urged me to sleep early. I joked with him that we have an "appointment" at 3 am. Well, perhaps words really have power... I really couldn't get into sleep! Even though my body feels tired and the need to rest, i just couldn't enter into sleep! How do i 'de-active' my mind and shut it down? Am not worrying or particularly troubled but my mind was perhaps just too active...... or am i just trying too hard to sleep?

Was not as cruel to wake hubby up at 3 am, though i sensed that he perhaps knew that i was not sleeping well, in the midst of his turning and pauses of snoring... Actually, it would help a lot if his snoring is muted or not as loud... He likes to say that i disturb his sleep by sleeping late... he is the one who disturb me from sleeping all night long!!! I had shown him a video clip of his snoring. He actually smiled quietly, then later told me off and repeatedly asked me to delete the clip.

You ever had the feeling that after countless tossing and turning, your head felt heavy or uncomfortable? After almost 2 hours of agony, I decided to pick up a book to read. Have been wanting to go through that book for days but never got down to it... It was my 11-year old bible, where i had highlighted many meaningful verses through the years. I went through all the highlighted verses, including some notes written by myself and given by others. It was a good time of reading and thinking.

After lying down for 3 hours, I know I will not go into sleep easily. Body did not feel as tired now. The rooster did its scheduled duty: crowed at 3 am. Actually, it was 15 minutes earlier i.e. 2.45 am. My housemate ever said that our neighbour's rooster always crow at 3 am, and again at 5 am or so. So, end up my appointment was with the jet-legged rooster......